With Alittle Bit of Courage

 Hello blog,  It's my yearly update?? I missed out on 2020 though. It is currently 1:51am and I'm actually working since 11am yesterday. Wanted to take a short break and update a little. JianHua and I are doing fine, yesterday was our 3 years 8 months versary. He is still the same him I knew a few years back. Even we are unable to travel or take long break because of his work I am happy he tries to make effort to go on short staycation trips with me. It sounded like an "of course" thing for couples but it is really not easy for us cause of the nature of his work. We are currently trying to get a house from HDB, the November BTO marks the 1 year we have been trying. I really pray and hope we can get it this time around. As for work-wise, where shall I start?  2021 is coming to an end, I am notified by my CEO that he would like to promote me to the COO position. I have been trying to push this to maybe a year or two later. I don't feel that I am able to take up the ...

It's the last month of 2019, some say time will fly after you've reached a certain age. I totally agree with it. I was looking at my previous post about Hokkaido, there should be like at least 3-5 days worth of material but I was lazy haha. Still, I will try to complete it even if it takes 3-5 years! I am determined. Right, what's going on here. I have got to know a guy since late 2016, our relationship has always been very ambiguous. You know the kind that hasn't officially dated, but you're dating kind. We are not that kind that sticks to each other every day and we both have a career to pursue. He's weird like me, he is rather nice to me and most importantly we have the same frequency. We officially started our journey together in April 2018. Till now it has been 1-year ++ he still dotes on me here and there, bicker with me a lot and I really like it. Through the 1 year plus together we never really had crazy fights it is most of the time loving. F...

Ahh~ I missed the weather there really. It's a month and a week since my trip to the beautiful Hokkaido.  Let's talk about it (: So, we booked our air ticket with Thai Airways to Chitose for about SGD $406. Can you believe it? They are having a promotion at that time, I mean why wait right? It's half the price! The con is probably that 1 stop over at Bangkok but the stop over timing is just 1.5 hours. We've booked the flight around December, so shortly after booking, we started to research which route we are going to take. There are too many places of interest to visit and we are driving. So it was decided that we head south and drive one round back to Chitose. For our transport, we made the booking through www2.tocoo.jp. Toyota wish was our initial choice, but because there are 5 person luggage space in the car is my main concern. For 6 days the rental fees were about 40000 Yen (With Bilingual GPS and HEP ). YAY~ Let's go~ Day 1 So when we arrived ...

It's only March, it is still not too late to say Happy New Year. I am turning 27 this coming April. I have read my ancient post, crazy.. It's ten years ago. If i remember correctly, I started the blog because it was a trend for youngsters to have a blog. It feels like i am seeing myself grow up throughout the years. Friends come and go, its sad to see people once you're so close with once. Drifted I once read an article, friends that are more than 7 years will probably be friends for life. I wondered how many that kind of friends have i left? 6 years, i am with my current company going 7 years to be accurate. Didn't think that i could stick to one job for so long. My relatives has been asking me to continue my studies since company wanted to sponsor it. Will not be easy though, i will have to sign a bond. It was rather stressful because they are giving alot of pressure as they have high expectations for my generation. Hopefully all will go well. Places ...

Did i mention? Ive managed to contact a long lost friend? Jeremy used to be our neighbour when we were still staying at the old place. when i was about 7 or 8? He moved out. For all i can remember, we were very close. This includes my siblings and my older/younger neighbour. Still remember we visited him once after he moved in to his new flat. That was... when i was 9 i think? We were busy growing up and lost contact. 12, i wondered how we managed to find each other but we did and texted for abit. Then we lost contact again... All these years, i have been wanting to look for him. Without contact number, address. We can only try our luck through social media. Friendster was the in thing during secondary school, wasn't able find anything. Then Facebook came, but still no catch. It was not till 2016 March, i managed to come across someone by the same name and studied in same school. He looked a lot like he was young. Tried leaving a message...

Not right, i don't feel right. Selfish, why so selfish? Lies, what to prove? Honesty, how much does it worth? Words, light as feathers. Harm, damages that are done. They have left. Gone, with the wind. What is left? You and your ego. How much does it worth? *h     e     a    l

I know you are lying I choose to be silent.   Doesn't that make us both liars?       Honesty  

Woah, in a blink of eye we've reach 2016. It has been 1 and a half year since my last post haha! i totally left 2015 out. Why am i suddenly here, you know... sometimes i'll just have this sudden urge to write alot of things. So now is the time. So lets recap on what happened for the past 1 and a half year 1) Soon after my last post in 2014, IVE GOT MY FREAKING DRIVING LICENSE! after dragging for so many years, like seriously... from 18 till im 24 haha. After spending 3k or more i have finally got it. I was like tearing when i walked up to the TP side to apply for my hard copy of license. That joy was so indescribable. Just so joyful :) 2) I have finally finally finally travelled to JAPAN! Japan has been a dream come true for me. Some where ive wanted to go so bad since 16 years old. It's like a very distant dream too, for a teenager i do not so much money to travel so far and especially to a place where the standard of living is so high. Now i'm earning enough to...

I have a dog, she's a Chihuahua and her name is 'Ah girl'. I got her when I was 9 years old, she was actually my aunt's close friend's dog. They had to give her away because they were having some family issue. She was 3 when she came, I was really happy because as a kid I've always wanted a dog. We didn't change her name because we thought that she will not get use to it so her name remained as 'Ah girl' Her character: Being shy, she doesn't like to play around with other dogs and even with human being she needs to know them well enough before she could get comfortable around them. She is not a quiet dog but very protective towards her family members. Ah girl likes to catch insects or bugs that flew into our house, if there happen to be a cockroach in the room I'll just need to carry her in and she will do a wonderful job as a 'pest exterminator'.  Like all other dogs she likes FOOD, she don't just eat dog food, my mom...

Miss the old times. And happen to see video and have decided to upload it :D

Im scare, scare im dissapointed with SJ's Comeback. I saw other groups in SM. Their MVs was good. Song was good. I dont know, i think SM really doesnt focus on SJ even they are very popular and is making alot of money. PLEASE SM! No dancing in a box. No SJ Funky. Better clothes Better budget for MVs. SERIOUSLY! :(  I really like SJ Funky Genres alot. Sorry Sorry pull me into this Pearl Sappire Blue world. Even it's disppointment I will still be there. *Ever Lasting Friends

Bad bad face condition :(

I'm so unhappy. So unhappy with work. Feeling so stressful Stupid politics, it didn't happen until you came. It's like to the extend that I feel like quitting. Pay raise?, no that doesn't motivate me at all. I get to know that a lot of my colleagues were having same feeling as I do. Some are like older than me in the com. To say the truth, I'm seriously unhappy with my manager as well. Laughs, hopes she don't see this :/ Maybe Im still young, this kind of things doesn't look attractive Trying to get people side you and pulling others down Or making them look bad isn't a good thing to do. Although you're not directly affecting me I still feel s t r e s s . No one wants to fight with you over a tittle. You can go ahead to get it. My poor colleague.. If anyone is to fight over the tittle with you I don't think I will lose. We are just a small company, I hope the happiness continues Xuele is still xuele, unable to change even I tried so hard. 。・゜・(ノД...

March 2012 Time is really scary, without noticing much im gonna reach 22 soon. Not long ago, im still laughing at XiaoQing becoming old. Its gonna be my turn in a month's time. D: Suddenly have the urge to update something. Haven been happy at work lately. Things kind of change lately, people changes too -__- Cause of something is you, one pointing finger is you as well. S T R E S S . . . Korea Trip~! I fulfilled one of my dream :) To go to a winter country to see snow. hohoho But my ultimate dream is still to visit J AP AN (My ueda T.T) It was very very.. very cold, just before boarding seoul is snowing. After ard 5 1/2hr the snowing stopped, it was -4 degree. But we are still able to see thick accumulated s now along the roads and on gentle hills. First day we went to DongDaeMun for shoppinggg :D and Lotte World. Its tiring cause i didnt sleep on plane. We are staying at a 5* hotel in Kang Nam area . Second day, we went to Ice Gallery, SINCHEON and Everland SINCHEON----...

It started with a child and ended with a broken marriage. Husband got girlfriend outside, threaten to take away children. That's just so childish thing to do. What goes around comes around. She's just my age and she need to go through all these :( I don't know how to use nice words to comfort her, I'm bad at it. I just advice her to leave. For people using child to threaten, their mind will never function well. So just leave. I'm not sure if I advice the right thing. But as an outsider I thought this would be the best for her and her children 180 degree turn over. Never judge a book by its cover.

Actually, I'm quite afriad of my second ops. ESP the GA, the process that I'm going into deep sleep and waking up suddenly :/ that's quite scary... The first ops after I'm awake, I cry like stupid and I don't know why. They are going to put this tube in my throat, after taking it out it's a sore throat feeling.. Eeks :( emm if I can don't go I don't wanna go.

It's UEDA birthday today!!! I can't really find a clear picture of him being a bouzu :( I find one and post it!! I think the hair suits him well amazingly:) -written on 04/10 I love you, I love kattun! Fight-ou!

HI! ITS ME.. Its boring at night~ so i've decide to hang around. I've came to realise that my last post was on 24/04 :o OKAY~ im done -____- *Im Excited

Thank you, weather for not rainning Thank you, my hair for being so obedient Thank you, my family for the beautiful deco and effort for making this celebration possible Thank you, my relative for your present and blessing Thank you, my friends for taking your time and making ur way down, Thank you for the presents :) Sorry, if i have miss out anything or did not attend to any of you well . Its not a very wonderful day, but im still happy im 21 now

Woah, how long is it since my last update... VERY LOOOONG~ i have no time to blog.. so just visit me on my FB or Twitter, i appear very frequently there. :) * LOVES